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“Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.”~Henry David Thoreau
I’ve been very upset lately with myself. These past two nights I’ve done nothing but hurt myself, emotionally and putting myself in situations that could’ve hurt me physically. I couldn’t take who I was becoming anymore. I’ve become a monster over these past few months and I absolute hate myself for it. I saw two little girls walking down the road last night and I just broke down. I miss being sweet and innocent. I miss hanging out with friends, having sleepovers that consisted of talking about our latest crushes and painting eachother nails and doing eachother hair. Now sleepovers consist of drinking so much we black out and smoking so much we can’t even function. My attitude towards life is “I do what I want, when I want, fuck everyone else”, Well that got me pretty much no where except crying myself to sleep every night, feeling alone every moment I take another breath, and hating myself so much I don’t want to look into the mirror. I’m not proud of myself, or the things i’ve been doing, but I was put into these situations for a reason. And the reason is, so I can see that I need change in my life. And I’ve said I Wanted to change many times, but never stock my word, or even tried to. But that was before I hit rock bottom. I’ve now hit rock bottom. I won’t say i’ll automatically become an angel but I will start making better choices for myself, and put up boundaris for myself and learn to say no and enough is enough. I want to be told that someone is proud of me again. I want to be happy and know that I’m going to grow up strong, and a good person. I know nobody is perfect, but I want to try my hardest be the best I can be for myself and to help others around me be so as well.
Today I woke up and called my 3 bestfriends. They completely agree with me. And we are going to help eachother change and find ourselves again. We will still have fun this summer, but we don’t need drugs or alcohol to have it.
There support and everyone elses means the entire world to me.
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I was waiting for that. My parents finally went to work. I am home alone. Sorry mum and dad, that I havent been the girl you always wanted. Sorry for anybody I have annoyed in my life. I thought I could run away from everything here on Tumblr, but I had more hate instead because of how I look and my nationality. I love all the people that I met here, the ones who supported me and loved me. Some people may say she is just seeking attention but just put yourself in someone’s shoes for once. I will not delete my Tumblr but I will delete myself from life.Goodbye.
PLEASE REBLOG THIS SO SHE’LL KNOW THAT THE PEOPLE HERE ON TUMBLR DO CARE AND LOVE HER!
STOP SCROLLING. now reblog the hell out of this.
Tumblr was here for me when I needed help. Now I’m here for Tumblr. Stop fucking scrolling and reblog. Your reblogging of useless shit can wait. This is a person’s life.
‘stop fucking scrolling’
The ‘fucking’ really sells it
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never-going-down-never-giving-up asked: Everyone makes mistakes, some bigger than others, but still it's only human. It is the only way to figure out who you truly are. Whether you have made mistakes or not I will admire you, because all I see is a beautiful strong women who is just trying to figure herself out. Like I said I am always here if you need to talk :)
thank you so much.
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